Anyone who has opened a browser in the last few months has seen the memes and hype surrounding Tiger King on Netflix. Ostensibly a true crime documentary, the limited series does nothing more than put the lives of what are clearly seriously damaged people on exhibit. Tiger King is not there to inform us, elevate …
It’s been a while, over a year in fact, since I’ve posted here. I haven’t been writing much and have turned my focus (no pun) to photography. But that isn’t the only reason. I’ve wanted to wait until this most recent stage of my life was officially done to talk about it openly. A week …
Ego is a bitch. It is the petulant, undisciplined child inside all of us screaming defiantly at the world, “MINE!” It sometimes sets unreasonable expectations and calls us terrible names when we fail. My ego is no different. A long time ago in a peloton far, far away I used to be a road bicycle …
I grew up with half my family living in a small town and the other half living on a farm. In the city there was bike riding on the streets, going over to friends houses, and lots of television and spending time indoors. In the country we would walk in the woods, play hide and …
“I’m not sure if the passage of time affects our core identities so much as reveals them to us.” -Jennifer Egan I walked out of my therapist’s office for the last time this week. In October of 2014 I sat on Dr Z’s couch for the first time and wept deeply, opening myself to the …
Love sought is good, but given unsought is better -William Shakespeare Twelfth night, Act 3 Scene 1 Part of my trauma in being the son of a narcissist is that my needs were never given priority or consideration. Only my father’s desires mattered, even when they regarded basic needs. If there wasn’t enough money for …
“Free Unfettered Shriven Free – Dream that what is dreamed will be: Old eyes clasped shut until they see, And sing the silent prophecy – And be – Unfettered Shriven Free.” –Stephen R Donaldson, The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant Rage Friday evening our journey with heart medicine ended unlike in previous ceremonies. There was …
WALKING WITH GOD (part 4 of 5) In the Light of the Feminine Though I knew all the women who would be attending this ceremony there was a hint of anxiety as I traveled to the temple- I was the only male who would be journeying with them. There were 5 participants and our guides …
WALKING WITH GOD (part 3 of 5) The Tale of the Incredible Shrinking Pants Life Force, that part of us that ‘always acts on our behalf’ had long been a stranger to me. I distrusted it, shied away from it in fear, and learned from a young age that allowing it expression would result only …
